The passing of a year and the breaking in of a new, pristine calendar hold some mystical powers over me, and I would guess, many others as well. There is a fresh promise of a better you, the myriad promises of more exercise, a new career move or in my case, more blogging and writing in general.
Each year, as the final days of December approach, basking in having survived another Christmas (or Holidays, depending on your level of P.C. savvyness) all futures seem possible, even probable. Alas, we all arrive back at our jobs after the hangovers subside (alcohol or otherwise) and we fall back into familiar routines and once again start flipping pages of our day planners hoping for some divine intervention in our lives and bringing to us the perfect alchemy of happiness.
This sounds more downbeat than it needs to...I am actually a strong believer in personal change, but I have come to realize it takes more than a two day blitzkrieg of karmic reprogramming - it actually takes hard work and a real desire to shift. The vision of the new you often comes pouring in full and rich, but the implementation of change is long and hard, and unfortunately often about tradeoffs - you have to work the equation to determine what falls out when a new thing needs birthed.
For me, I am increasingly being called to write (about what, and to whom, it is not yet clear) and therefore I have to find the time, space and resource to support this calling. But mostly I need the courage to pursue this path as God only knows how many folks out there think they can make a living as a writer.
These probabilities aside, I do think that it is the process, and the commitment that makes the personal shifting worth doing. As has oft been said, it turns out to be much more about the journey than the destination and the desire to take the back roads, a new route to a familiar place, is strong in each of us.
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